I'm so sorry to hear about you losing Midge, she sounds like a wonderful lifelong companion and it's perfectly understandable that you feel terrible after losing someone who was in your life for so long.
I hope you are beginning to feel better now or will do soon and will soon be able to remember all the good times you had together, of which there must be many.
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