Hi Diana I have been reading your post about your special boy Shiloh. I love his picture. He certainly is an adorable boy. I am so sorry for your loss and I know how hard it is to go through this grief we all share here. When you mention you felt like you were seeing God through Shiloh's eyes and spirit I know exactly what you mean. Their beautiful eyes are like a mirror into their pure and loving souls. Their spirit shines right through and the love they give us is just such a precious gift. I want to thank you for reading about my dobie girl Leya and for taking time to send words of comfort my way. I actually go back and read your post on Leya's diary quite often. You lost Shiloh about a week after I lost Leya. So much of what you feel rings true for me too. At first I thought I would have to move because there were so many memories of Leya in the house and the house was so empty without her. Every time I drive down our street I also imagine her out on one of the walks she loved so much. Then I started thinking I could never leave the house as it was the only place I felt close to her. I do understand how hard it will be for you when your house sells. But Shiloh and the memories you have of your time with him live in you and they will still be with you no matter where you live. I'm sure it helps to have your new boy.I know they never replace the ones we've lost, but you can start a whole new and unique bond with him. At this point, I can't even think about ever getting another dog. I too had to make the decision to have Leya put to sleep, and maybe that is the thing I just can't live with now. As she got older, I prayed that I would not have to make that decision, but I was not to be spared that. Even though the vet told me he believed it was the best thing to do, I can't help but feel such regret and guilt for making that decision. I wish I could be at peace with it, like you, but I just can't stop thinking I should have done more to try to save her. It is clear that you tried very hard and did everything you could to try to save Shiloh and maybe knowing that is why you have been able to make peace with the decision. I hope I can in time. Take care Diana and thank you again for your kind thoughts and words.
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