Your Pet Loss Stories

by Patti
(Colorado)

My Dearest Chewie,

I loved you the moment I laid eyes on you. You stole my heart, you really did. You were such a beautiful soul. The moment you came into my life, our souls became connected. You came into my life unexpectedly and changed it... thank you. You came into my life for a reason and I gave you all the love and care you could possibly want and needed... you deserved it. I gave you the sense of security that you never had before and I helped you overcome all of your fears. It saddened my heart to know you were abused for the first two years of your life. Because of that, I wanted to give you everything; I wanted to give you so much love because you were such a precious and special creature.

Chewie, my friend, I spoiled you and showered you with love because you were special from the beginning. You were precious and very sweet. Those who met you fell in love with you. Children always wanted to pet you and say hi... you never minded because you always loved the extra attention. You were gentle with children (especially those with special needs) and you loved meeting new people.

You touched my heart in so many ways. It meant so much to me when you were always there for me, even on the bad days. You were always so eager to listen and lick my tears away. I can’t thank you enough for the things you taught me and gave me. You were so forgiving... I know this is one thing I need to get better at.

You had the best personality ever. You had characteristics that just made everyone smile and laugh. I loved the way you would toss your toys in the air and chased after them. I also loved how you would wake me in the morning five minutes before my alarm would go off... you had a routine. You were also my heating blanket and you would sometimes sleep under the covers with me; that was very special to me.

Thank you for letting me hold you while you slept on Tuesday, October 9, 2012. That is a special and happy memory I will always have of you. You were so relaxed in my arms and I felt the weight of your body pressing against mine. That was a special moment for me since you were diagnosed with that horrible Vestibular disease. After you were diagnosed you no longer wanted to be held because of the motion sickness you experienced. Also, thank you for sleeping next to me on my bed about a month earlier. That was the first time you laid on my bed since the onset of that horrible disease.

Although the brain damage caused by the Vestibular disease had taken full control, you still showed signs of being there mentally. When we called your name you still acknowledged and responded. But it broke my heart dearly to see you decline so rapidly because of the Vestibular as well as the problems you were having with your kidneys. You could no longer walk or stand and you slept all the time.

I know I did the right thing because you were in so much pain. But it pains me to know you're no longer there. I know you don't want me to cry or grieve, but losing my friend, my soul mate, has been hard for me to cope with. Sweetie, you were my world for nearly 13 years. I know you’re here with me in spirit though and know that you are my guide (like you were while you were alive). You were there with me yesterday when I walked along the green belt that was your favorite trail... I felt at peace know you were there. I am remembering the good times, which make me smile and laugh.

I know it in my heart that you’ll be waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge.

I love you dearly,

Mom