Your Pet Loss Stories

by Desiree Akins
(Chanute, Ks U.S.A)

I got Sasha (my tiny 4lb white female Chihuahua) when she was only 5 weeks old. My mother bought her for me as a present when I was 9. She was so tiny she fit in the palm of my hand and the first thing she did was kiss my hand when I picked her up. She's been my closest friend for years, I am now 25.

Two days ago one of my younger female Chihuahuas attacked her while we were away. I never dreamed it would happen. After two days of her suffering here at home, not eating, barely able to stand or walk I had to make the painful decision to have her euthanized. I never thought I would hurt so badly. She was a big part of my life and as strange as it sounds I hate the thought of my little baby staying out all night in the cold confines of a box buried in the dirt.

I am hurting so bad. I've been crying almost constantly all day and I'm literally sick to my stomach. I miss her so. I keep questioning whether or not I made the right decision and I can't help but wish I would have had more time with her these last few years, you see I've been very busy raising my two children ages 2 and 4. The idea that I'll never see her again is so painful.

While it's a relief to not see her suffering anymore, I still wish I had her warm little body laying next to mine right now. Along with her died a little piece of my life, a chapter is closed never to be re-opened. I only hope that the sting of this whole thing goes away soon... now I'm the miserable one.

No one seems to really understand how I feel. I've searched the net high and low, trying to reach out and grasp something... anything that will make me feel better. At least getting to write it all out helps a bit. I only wish there was someone in an identical situation that could share my pain with me. I feel so silly being this upset over a pet :(