Your Pet Loss Diaries

Jan 22, 2011

by Sun
(Santa Fe, TX)

My Dear Charlie,

The sun is shining today, but I am not. I walked Bud and Duke to your beloved backyard and toward the pond. The weather was too beautiful, but the yard and the pond were too sad and lonely for me to stay around for a long time like we all used to. I drag myself there for your brothers, start crying when I don't see you anywhere, then I open my phone to look at your photo and dip my hand in my pocket to hold your soft fur. It actually makes me sadder, but I have to feel a part of you. Every moment seems so painful, I dread the mornings, knowing it's going to be another silent day without you.

Charlie, it's been over a month, I would love you to come see me even in my dreams, please?!!! I miss watching you sleeping, walking, eating, listening to your snoring, everything about you so much, and there is no one in our family who would half-way understand my feelings. Diana has been the best supporter ever. I am sure Leya bragged about her greatest Mom and she should. Leya looks beautiful, almost looks like Bud, don't you think?

Please take good care of yourself and Leya, and please you all drop by your earth Moms' and visit as often as you can.

Won't you make our dreams come true.

Love you very much,

Mom