Your Pet Loss Diaries

May 22, 2012

by Louise
(Australia)

I woke to an instant flood of tears today. I could not control them at all. I still can't believe you're gone, that I'll never see your beautiful little face again. I decided to spend the day outside, gardening, I feel closer to you when I'm outside. I made a gravestone for you and chopper, a huge red river rock that I painted "Chopper and Seth were here!" on. I planted two trees there as well, one for each of you. I will be able to watch them grow and hopefully look at them and smile one day.

You are all I can think about right now and nothing else. It's only been 2 days since you left but it feels so much longer. I ache to hold you in my arms, to feel your unconditional love and affection. My heart feels heavy, devoured by sadness. I miss you terribly and worry that you are missing me too.

You never left my side over the past few years, constantly keeping me in sight. My little shadow, the world seems so empty without you in it. You were only in my life for 10 years but it felt like a lifetime. I don't remember my life before you, and don't want to. You made my life so complete and gave me so much happiness. You were always there when I needed a cuddle or just a friendly face to ease my worries. How will I ever survive without you baby? I dont want to, I want you back. I love you so much darling and I hope you're ok. Xxx