Your Pet Loss Diaries

Sept 18, 2012

by Lisa Thomas
(Las Vegas, Nevada. USA)

Hi Rufus,

I wanted to tell you I miss you so much my Rufy dufy goofy guy and to tell you I think of you all the time. I wonder if you are happy, if you are scared or lonely? Do you miss me? Are you waiting for me? Can you feel me when I'm thinking of you or when I send you my love? Do you see me when I cry for you? Do you know when I'm so lost without you?

Is there really something after death? Or is this all just wishful thinking? If this is all there is and when you do die that's it no afterlife, no nothing just death then what is all this for? If this is it, and there is nothing out there after death then why is there pain and heart ache and what are all the happy moments and all the good things for? Why and who got us here? Am I looking forward to seeing you for nothing? I sure hope not that would really be a waste if all these years I believed in something that wasn't true.

I dont have any answers but I do still have a little hope, that this isn't all for nothing that there is a heaven and a rainbow bridge and that this is all for a greater reason. I don't know but I'd like to believe I will be with you again and forever, I'd like to believe you were taken cos God needed you for a reason, that you going to the bridge was for a greater reason then you being here with me and Pettie and Louie and Penny.

I don't know I'm just thinking out loud, anyway you go play and have fun ok don't forget to eat all your dinner and go to bed on time, ok I love you Rufus more then ever and I'm missing you so much, I send you all my love to you,

Your Mommy xoxoxox