by Lisa Thomas
(Las Vegas Nevada, USA)
Hi my good boy,
I am sorry I haven't written in a day or so, I sure do miss you, I think of you all the time. I sure hope you are happy Rufus, I hope you are running and playing and making all kinds of friends.
I hope you get to eat all you want and eat all the things you like, which is just about every thing. I hope you'rr staying warm at night and I hope more then anything you know just how much I love you and I'm sorry I couldn't have done more for you.
I wish I would of taken you out more on long walks and I wish I would of got to have more one on one time with you. I'm so sorry for all the times I didn't kiss you or tell you how much I love you, and i am sorry for all the times I chased you away from the food bowl, I thought I was helping and I was making things worse. I didn't know you felt like you wasn't full cuz of your diabetes and I'm sorry I didn't know just how sick you really was.
I'm sorry if I gave up too soon, and I'm sorry if you wasn't ready to go yet, I thought I was doing the best thing I could do for you, you were so sick. I'm sorry for all the hugs and kisses I can't give you now and I'm sorry that you are there by yourself. I'm sorry for all the times you were scared and I wasn't able to comfort you. And I'm sorry you will never know how I would of given my life for you.
You are my baby my big guy and I promise if you wait for mommy I will spend eternity makng it up to you. I love you my Rufy Dufy Goofy Guy, love always your Mommy xoxoxoxo