Your Pet Loss Diaries

Jan 5, 2013

by Gabrielle
(Scotland)

I felt overwhelming grief today. Suddenly I shed tears. Why this is I don't know. I thought the grief was beyond tears. This is the first time I have really wept for you Alfie. Until now I felt sick and empty, now I feel so very sad that you could not stay longer.

Can't help thinking back and trying to find any signs before that you were destined for this disease, but there is nothing. I feel angry also at the vet for taking the biopsy. I feel that if you hadn't suffered the anaesthesia and the cutting, I could have treated the cancer myself with these excellent herbal remedies that have now arrived too late.

From the first visit to the vet for a tooth inspect to the last day was less than a month. It is cruel and I am so sorry that your happy-go-lucky life ended so suddenly.

I feel visits to vets are pointless. They seem to just stick needles in and cut and I feel angry that it was done without my permission and without me being there with you. Sorry my wonderful friend.

Tonight writing isn't helping and I can hardly see to do more. Goodnight lovely boy.