Your Pet Loss Diaries

December 22, 2010

My precious Leya,

Christmas is approaching so quickly and I want to just get into bed and sleep until it's over. Daddy finally put the tree up, even though I didn't want to. It just won't be the same without you to share it with. Every year I would have so much fun shopping for your Christmas presents and then trying to hide them from you. Christmas morning you would always be right in the middle of all the wrapping paper trying to hunt out your stuff. You would have such bright eyes and I knew you were happy and having fun.

This year when I look at the tree I just cry. I don't know how I will get through Christmas morning. I am going to get out all the pictures I have of you laying under the tree and spend some time looking at them and remembering those times. I will try to get one put on this site if I can. I have put a picture on of you just before we lost you. The puppy is Amanda's and you only got to spend a very short time with her. I was hoping she would be able to spend a lot of time with you and you could teach her how to be such a sweet and gentle girl, just like you. I know you would have loved her, you loved everybody and everything. Even the 4 cats. The puppy does not like them.

I put away your toys the other day, but I left out one of your chew bones for the puppy. She loves it and I feel like it is a gift to her from you. When she chews it, I think of you and what a special girl you were. I kept one of your favourite toys out for me, and I hold it at night when I am trying to sleep. Every day when I wake up, it is just like the first day without you, even though it has now been 4 months.

I will be thinking of you every minute and wishing you were with me again. I love you and miss you Leya.

Love always, Mommy