Your Pet Loss Diaries

Nov 27, 2012

Hey my love ~

I am still not able to accept losing you and I'm still trying to make sense of it. Someone posted a little saying on Facebook the other day and it said ~

'Don't cry because it's over;
Smile because it happened...'

Well, I will always cry because it's over but sometimes I can smile on the inside because I was lucky enough to know you.

And then the other day I was sitting here wondering why God allowed me to have you for only 2 of the shortest years I have ever known ~ then suddenly this thought just jumped in my head ~

Possibly God saw and realized how totally and completely I loved you in just 2 years and he realized that if I loved you so much in such a short period of time, he figured he should take you now, even though I would be devastated, because he knew that if he let me love and have you for 11 or 12 years and then take you away that that would surely kill me . . . ? ? ? ?

I'm hoping someday it helps but for now, nothing will ever make this easier or better. The fact is (for whatever reason) you are gone and I can never, no matter what I do or say, bring or have you back. Me without you is horrible. No matter what happened or how bad my day was, I always knew you would be there and that's all that mattered. I love you Sammy.

And even though your brother and sister are still here, it's just not the same. The only time I see them is when they want to eat. It's like to them, I am just here to feed them. I bet if someone/anyone else fed them, I would never see them. Don't get me wrong, I love them and I know they love me BUT NOT LIKE YOU!!

You were so obviously my girl, rather I fed you or someone else did. You were always with me, day and nite. You slept with me every nite. Every morning when I woke up, you were there. You would meow and I would say, "Good morning sweet pea, how was your nite?" you would meow again and we would get up and start our day. Now I wake up alone . . .