Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Bette & Ellie Mae'

So Much Love, and Your Little Brother Codie

Jan 28, 2011

by Bette Huntemann
(Olney, Maryland)

Well Ellie Girl, each time I write to you I still have the overwhelming sense of pain. It hurts so much that you are not here anymore. When Daddy and I brought you home and placed you on the mantel, I took your stuffed baby and placed it on my nightstand. I wanted it to be the last thing I saw before I feel a sleep. Well every once in a while I would walk into the bedroom and your baby would be on the floor. I couldn't figure out how it was getting on the floor.

This morning I got up and let Codie (our sheltie) out and was watching tv. He came downstairs with your baby in his mouth and wanted to play. Isn't it strange Ellie that he would play tug of war with you but he only wanted to play with tennis balls that is what his favorite toy is. So I took it away from him and placed it again on the nightstand next to my side of the bed. A couple of hours later I came upstairs and Codie had gotten your baby and he was lying in his crate with your baby. Codie really misses you as well.

You would love playing with Codie in all the snow we have you loved the snow, and I can just see you in the backyard running and chasing Codie.

Now you are nice and warm, and safe and healthy, but for me my grief for you is sometimes too much to bear. Ellie other people that we don't even know have posted things about how you must have been such a special dog. Other people who love their pet just as much as I love you. It is so nice to read the things that they have said. I thank all of you who have posted comments. I know Ellie would being sitting next to you wanting to be petted as she loved attention.

Missing you and thinking of you Ellie Mae, Mommy loves you and misses you so very much!!!

Love,

Mommy

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